my feet may fail

As my time is getting closer to leaving my family, my heart gets sad.  I was in my car thinking about leaving and saying goodbye; immediately tears started streaming down my face I was already seeking His comfort but the tears just made it more clear I needed more of Him!  I was listening to 100.9 KXOJ (Christian radio station in Tulsa) and I said, "Lord you can use the next song to tell me that I am doing the right thing.  Papa, please show me that I am doing the right thing by leaving my family and friends." Then, He played the song Oceans by Hillsong United:

You called me out upon the water, the great unknown, my feet may fail.  There I find you in the mystery, oceans deep, my faith will stand.  Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you may call me.  Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.   

God has used this song to speak truth into my life about Haiti.  It brings so much comfort to me when I think about uncomfortable times there.  In the moment the song came on, the tears fell harder because we serve such a good Father who loves us more than I can imagine! Being faithful in small things, He will allow us to be faithful in big things.

In addition to all of this, I read Sarah Young's Jesus Calling.  I haven't read it in a while but this morning my mom had it sitting on the counter and the Lord told me to read it today.  I thought it would be great to share because it is built on so much truth!

You can achieve the victorious life through living in deep dependence on Me.  People don't associate victory with success: not falling or stumbling, not making mistakes.  But those who are successful in their own strength tend to go their own way, forgetting about Me.  It is through problems and failure, weakness and neediness, that you learn to rely on Me.
True dependence is not simply asking Me to bless what you have decided to do.  It is coming to Me with an open mind and heart, inviting Me to plant My desires within you.  I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach.  You know that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal.  Thus begins your journey and profound reliance on Me.  It is faithwalk, taken one step at a time, leaning on Me as much as you need.  This is not a path of continual success bu of multiple failures.  However, each failure is followed by growth, nourished by increased reliance on Me.

It is okay that my feet fail.  The Lord says we will fail, everyday!  Run back to Him, let Him carry you when your oceans deep.  In Him you can do anything, you can walk on the oceans!

Psalm 34:17-18                             2 Corinthians 5:7                         Joshua 1:8